2001-05-11 - 8:58 a.m. - a show in columbus
last night fred was talking and i could feel the air around my head part so that your gaze could reach my face. he was talking about youth and passion and remaining vital and you were just staring. you are a beautiful person. i love you. and last night lovesick really touched alot of people im pretty sure. they have so much intensity and never seem to give up. julia said it best: "i always feel so clean after watching them play." and then afterward as you were leaving you hugged me and i wished that the hug would never end. because i wonder how often i will see you until september. and i know you probably won't ever read this because your computer isn't set up correctly. but i wonder...i am words that have never been spoken and probably never will be. i am frozen blood in brittle veins pleading for spring at acute angles. but it is spring you say. only in some parts of the world. im a hemisphere away from you. emotionally anyway. and i really think...i really think...i really think...
this is the beginning of hope. i will try to never lose the things that make me breathe. until i stop breathing.
"the storm it came up strong, and it shook the trees, and blew away our fears."
ive been working on a long piece of poetry. the first two installments are up here in past entries. the third is roughlyw ritten and will be posted in a day or two. i want to get it published. i dont know where or how. maybe by myself.
"i had too much to drink, and i didn't think, no i didn't think of you, i guess that's all i needed."
love.
xoxo
listen to: lovesick, REM, Bruce Springsteen, Lauren Hospital, Flashpapr, Love, Nick Drake,
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